2023 Review

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4/6 goals checked off in 2023 Goals and Wishes 🌳 Not too bad!

(2023 End of Year Update: checked off some items and added some comments)

Should be concrete and achievable

❌Output at least 1 complete artwork a month
- I had missed some months because of 2 big commissions.
✔️More physical exercises. Aim for 30 min a day!
- it's not exactly 30 mins, but was very consistent.
✔️until October, achieve an acceptable drawing skill and switch to painting and composition study
❌Maintain online presence, share my thoughts more, comment on posts and artworks
- I had a heated discussion about AI on FB in April and lost any will to maintain online presence
✔️Maintain this garden! Does not need to fill with a lot of content, but keep it consistent! 1 update per week should be fine
- I'd say this is still counted since I'm still not dropping this garden and still have plenty of interest in maintaining it.
✔️Reducing time for Passive Input🌱, last 1 hours of each day and sunday are the only time I can do that.
- biggest achievement, looking and admiring others is really detrimental for my current self. Comparing your individual self with the collective entity of people you admire
Note to self: be aware of Goodhart's law
- being concrete is good as a reference, but the measure of a concrete number is not what I should be ultimately aim for.

It's a slower year than 2022
I added a lot of new tools in my toolset nnnv Working Tools
- I finally feel very satisfied with my brush organization and shortcut.
My SNS account didn't grow much but that's to be expected with my low and irregular posting frequency.

Some colored sketches:
- Suisei
- Birthday Art for tamomoko
- Tencha Debut Anniversary
- Miku Birthday
Rene Commission
Mints Commission
HAM - nnnv ➡ hampwn 🌱
FUMBLED - nnnv ➡ Nyphielia
Datas102 VTuber (the full model was uploaded on the client page)
This garden

Still stuck in the mindset of a Chronic Optimizer without actually doing real work.
- The bright side is I don't hoard resources and rely on Passive Inspiration anymore.
Inking skill still sucks.
For many reasons, I wasn't too motivated to finish personal artwork anymore
- Slow drawing skill
- perfectionism
- AI situation
- lack of purpose in general
- etc.
Improving for the sake of improving, not to serve a specific purpose
Generally low motivation because of all the news about AI, I hate-read alot.

Daily life, mindfulness improve massively. Feeling more refreshed in general, still not too good with all the depressive episodes but it's more tolerable now.
Drawing skills continue to improve. I feel very lucky that I'm able to focus on improving, and I want to thank myself for not giving up. And that's thanks to the support from my SO, family and friends, I really couldn't do this alone.
Improving my journaling habit. I've been more honest with myself in my journal (reflecting on what I did wrong and right) instead of sugarcoating or playing down my achievement.
I don't feel like a zombie anymore thanks to consistent exercises.

Ok, onwards to 2024!